11.08.2023

Dark Crystal

Like a star you glisten through the unfathomable space between us
Yet somewhere deep and cold you dance graceful among the chaos
Swirling lonely in the void, the most beautiful daughter born from the nothingness
What immeasurable fortune that I would rise from the clay in this fleeting moment
Be there no maker, loving or cruel, then I should decide my fate was always to behold you


10.13.2023

Parts Work

On my own two feet again
And I'm stumbling - over the lessons I should have already learned

On my own two feet again
And I'm walking - on the coals that I lit, and it burns

On my own two feet again
Nothing's easy - someday soon it's gonna' be my turn

I'm tired, I inhale
Let's do this for one more day
I'm strong, I exhale
It takes so much work to stay this way

 

On my own two feet again
And I'm losing - the weight I should never have gained

On my own two feet again
They sold me - the freedom, but didn't mention the pain

On my own two feet again
Have mercy - it's so cold but I want to feel the rain

I'm tired, I inhale
Let's do this for one more day
I'm strong, I exhale
It takes so much work to stay this way


9.03.2023

Son, Burn

Covered by the blood yet still bleeding
Compelled to inhale; shamed for breathing
Drown! O, mistake I created
Compelled to ponder; taught to hate it
Disciple of failure, follow my word
I demand you ascend to elevations absurd
The dust on my boots, so easy you turn
To the rot in my roots: son, burn

9.01.2023

Probably Not

I send my thoughts to space to spin until they're sick
When they return they are always so tired, and burnt to a crisp
There is no cure for the disease I pretend I have
Besides of course the cured I could pretend to be

She doesn't think about me
Does she?

My thoughts escape before I can tell them not to exist
I just can't get my hands around their god damn necks
So I write them down and burry them deep in the dirt
One day, when they are found, the truth will be free

She doesn't think about me
Does she?

5.05.2023

Midna

I, the weary, beside you knelt
 And pled with death to hold you back
Now I, the lost, know how you felt
 My brightest star turned black

4.11.2023

Whispers

There was a demon in my head
I could not point you to its start
Though now its vengeful spirit's dead
These faint whispers won't depart

A flood of voices speak the truth
Of the facts I should believe
Yet louder are the baneful few
Who trace the lies I can't unsee

They hang like echoes, the words you said
When did I give them power?
Though not the demon in my head
You still make the whispers louder

I grasp for substance, the strength to seize
Ever choking on these lessons
So why make time for enemies
In my swiftly passing seconds?

3.01.2023

More Reasons to Find Me Less Appealing

I used to be someone's favorite cup
Did I break because I was weak or because I was dropped?
It doesn't seem to matter anymore
Now that I am just shards of wet glass on the kitchen floor
Sweep me away before someone gets hurt
To rest in my place among the crumbs and the dirt
What you didn’t say, but I know you meant
Is that there are plenty more cups, and a million more men

2.19.2023

Join Voice

Pass through my tired bones
Unbelonging sting
I used to feel alone
With all the good you didn't bring

Wash over my whole form
Caring's mellow curse
You used to keep me warm
Now getting warmer just feels worse

Teach me every danger
Blood flowing through the fountain
I will learn your very nature
I will climb you like a mountain

Face me empty captor
Useless pain that drains my soul
I'll hold the peace that I am after
Once I have known you whole