Don't Come Find Me

All these days that I rest in my grave before my time

Every hour that passes unused is unkind

I struggle against these ropes but don't untie me

Don't come find me

The days are slow, but these weeks they won't stop winding

Every habit, every sound they seem to remind me

That I am still waiting for some moment but it's never timely

Don't come find me

Every mountain's just a hill that I don't feel like climbing

I like to blame it on the pills but I'm probably lying

I can't sleep these years away but I'm happier when I'm trying

Don't come find me

Vile

Drained is the liar
With his endless rolling tires
  Vile is the wire
  There's no trial, only fire

Renewed is the sayer
The dirt beholds his prayer
  Vile is the layer
  That sits beyond the flayer

(Have fun starting over, dumbass)

How I Really Feel

I met a camgirl
We talked about anime
I ran out of coins
But she talked to me anyway
I know its not like that
But I checked my messages every day
When she finally sent one
it said "Let's have some fun today"

I'm just an idiot

I feel so out of place

How did I get here?

How do I escape

That's how I really feel 

I went out for a drive
It felt nice to be away
I spend my life in a screen
I spend my years in a day
With all of these almost friends
Who pretend that they see me
Or do I keep them at arm's length
So they don't see me bleeding?

I am so stupid

I know what not to think

But my brain goes on any way

All the way to the brink

That's how I really feel