Enucleation

My greatest fear
Is that my greatest fear is wrong
That the thing I couldn't do
Was easy all along
That I was too blind to see
That I was strong

My greatest regret
Is that I didn't sing along
When the music was still playing
When the lights were still on
That when I was finally ready
The moment was gone

Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary, etc.

I would think you a dream

If I was capable of dreaming something

So perfectly sweet

And so exquisitely soul crushing

I would think you to blame

But I welcomed the "curse" you placed on me

So perfectly sanguine

I'm so exquisitely weak

I'm on the other side

Of the picture I saved of you in the

Warm golden light

Of a sunset I'll never see

You're the only one who makes me feel this

Like my heart can't wait to be torn in two

I say your name three times in the mirror

But you never come through

O, how I wish you'd come through

The View from the Whole Foods Parking Lot

Fire in the sky
Are you the clouds, the color, or the light?
Song of the ocean tides
Are you the surf, the sand, or the fight?
Violet abyss
Are you the clouds, the color, or the mist?
Deep unspoken wish
Are you the hope, the fear, or the kiss?

Heaven is this moment
Hell is letting it pass

That Must Have Been Some Cave!

How far would you go
To spend one more day as your own ghost

haunting those thrift store clothes?

How long would you last

Up to your neck in pieces of the past

Rotting in the undergrowth?

How long will you hold

The stitches that healed so long ago

Worried that you'll need them again?

 

How far would you go

To spend one more day with the devil you know

Waiting for the bitter end

Follow me, empathy
Did I learn anything?

Swallow me, entropy

It's just another day
Through the trees' canopies
The light won’t reach everything
I'll always be in between
Or maybe it just feels that way

What We Do In the Shadows

Is it wrong to lie to someone who’d rather hear it
To play the part of who they wish you’d be?
Is it wrong to run from someone who wants to chase you
Just for them to finally catch then release?
Is it wrong to hurt someone who wants to hurt you
Just to ease some pain that they’ll never let you see?
Is it wrong to kill someone who hopes you die
In the middle of the night while you dream?

Is it wrong to want
The greatest sin is to want
Love to come easy

One Hour Compilation

You tremble like a star
So pretty but so far
Beyond this broken world
You swirl and swirl and swirl

Long forgotten child
Forced to wander, brave and wild
Your purpose in this world
Is to swirl and swirl and swirl

My light is growing dim
Adrift when I used to swim
Goodbye my darkened world
I swirl and swirl and swirl

Juliana

Reach through my skin
With your perfect hands
Tell me I am something
That I don't believe I am
Wander through my alleyways
Acquaint with all my thieves
Pick citrus from my orchards
Then rest in my dead leaves

I want to read every page
And then start again
I want to hate your enemies
And love all your friends
I'll clean all the windows
In your little shop downtown
When it's time to lock the doors at night
We'll be more than what we found