More Reasons

I used to be someone's favorite cup

Did I break because I was weak or because I was dropped?

It doesn't seem to matter anymore

Now that I am just shards of wet glass on the kitchen floor

Sweep me away before someone gets hurt

To rest in my place among the crumbs and the dirt

What you didn’t say, but I know you meant

There are plenty more cups, and a million more men

Alone in the Discord Channel

Pass through my tired bones
Unbelonging sting
I used to feel alone
With all the good you didn't bring

Wash over my whole form
Caring's mellow curse
You used to keep me warm
Now getting warmer just feels worse

Teach me of your danger
Blood flowing through the fountain
I will learn your very nature
I will climb you like a mountain

Face me empty captor
Useless pain that drains my soul
I'll hold the peace that I am after
Once I have known you whole

Perfect Balance Cheat Code

All these days that I rest in my grave before my time

Every hour passing unused, unkind

I struggle against these ropes but don't untie me

Don't come find me

The days are slow, but these weeks they won't stop winding

Every doubt and every shame keeps on reminding

That I'm still waiting for some moment but it's never timely

Don't come find me

Every mountain's just a hill that I don't feel like climbing

I try to blame it on the pills but I'm probably lying

I can't sleep these years away but I'm happier when I'm trying

Don't come find me

Vile

Drained is the liar
With his endless rolling tires
  Vile is the wire
  There's no trial, only fire

Renewed is the sayer
The dirt beholds his prayer
  Vile is the layer
  That sits beyond the flayer

(Have fun starting over, dumbass)

How I Really Feel

I met a camgirl
We talked about anime
I ran out of coins
But she talked to me anyway
I know its not like that
But I checked my messages every day
When she finally sent one
it said "Let's have some fun today"

I'm just an idiot

I feel so out of place

How did I get here?

How do I escape

That's how I really feel 

I went out for a drive
It felt nice to be away
I spend my life in a screen
I spend my years in a day
With all of these almost friends
Who pretend that they see me
Or do I keep them at arm's length
So they don't see me bleeding?

I am so stupid

I know what not to think

But my brain goes on any way

All the way to the brink

That's how I really feel 

When I Was the River

When I was the river, I turned where the earth curved, a slave to the whims of the ground

Now that I am the ocean, my depths go unsearched and all who enter must swim or drown

Alone Pt. 1

Well, I've got time
To tell you how I lost my soul and mind
To let you meet the me I left behind
All the things I tried to be
And yes, I'm fine
The universe is strange but less confined
No arbiter to commend my ways, or malign
Now that I find myself

Alone

For the first time on my own
No father, son, or holy ghost
No beautiful but distant rose
Just one overflowing dose