Miller's Planet

Can you feel my thoughts
Dancing all around you?
I can't make them stop

It seems there's nothing I can do

They keep me up at night

Like rain drops on a tin roof

Together they're a song

Almost as beautiful as you

You are the black hole
Towards which all my planets spin

Ever swirling into you

My favorite way to end

So let's begin

Just pull me in

Version of You

Hello, scared and helpless child

I know it's been quite a while

I'm here because I know your pain

You can't escape what you still contain

It's always in your most lonely moments

When you're feeling lost and wholly hopeless

You come to meet the one who saved you

The heart that held the pain that made you

Who you are

More than scars

You did only what you knew to do

What didn't kill you still pierced through

You held the shield that hurts to hold

Bought some safety with a bit of your soul

Right now it feels like the end is near
But one day this path will look so clear
And there's one thing that will always be true
You're the only one who gets to be the version of you

That survived

You're alive 

And you're so damn strong

If You Like Me (9 Tokens)

Girl behind the screen
I see you in my most terrifying dreams
Where the smile on your face
Brings light into my darkest place

The world is a beautiful place
Even more so since I came across your page
I wish I wasn't so afraid
But you made me feel strong and brave

Sorry I didn't come by
I wrote this poem to tell you why
I felt the undertow
The sweetest currents pulling me below

Maybe I should've just let myself drown

People Pleaser, Hardly Know Her

This is the empty moment where I used to stop and pray
It's there as a reminder that I'm helpless everyday
My instincts tell me something that the past has proved untrue

Everyone you show up for will do the same for you

I say nobody knows me but I'm the one who set the scene
The world outside is watching only what I let them see
Apparitions passing by floating careless through my life
Blurry photo in my phone they don't even try to hide

I'm frozen by the choices I'm still choosing not to make
I'm haunted by an army of the chances I don't take
So drown me in the river that was supposed to cleanse me
Until I find my way again I'll stick to just pretending

The Only Car on U.S. 19

Sitting by myself inside this empty house, where I chose to be
This barren tile prison, I used to call it home, feels so alien to me
My phone keeps going off, will it ever stop? Can I ever be free?
From the feeling that I failed even though I gave every part of me

Still I go to greet what's next
With no hopes and no regrets

You still live in my head where one question always lingers: Will you be ok?
I see you getting stronger while my days just get longer, let me waste away
I tried to make you see what I wanted to believe was always there
It’s so hard to be angry (at someone) when you know they tried their best to care

Still I go to greet what's next
With no hopes and no regrets

Because I have to

Dark Crystal

Like a star you glisten through the unfathomable space between us

Yet somewhere deep and cold you dance graceful among the chaos

Swirling lonely in the void, the most beautiful daughter born from the nothingness

What immeasurable fortune that I would rise from the clay in this fleeting moment

Be there no maker, loving or cruel, then I should decide my fate was always to behold you

Parts Work

On my own two feet again
And I'm stumbling - over the lessons I should have already learned

On my own two feet again
And I'm walking - on the coals that I lit, but it burns

On my own two feet again

Nothing's easy - someday soon it's gonna' be my turn

I'm tired, I inhale

Let's do this for one more day

I'm strong, I exhale

It takes so much work to stay this way

 

On my own two feet again
And I'm losing - the weight I should never have gained

On my own two feet again
They sold me - the freedom, but didn't mention the pain

On my own two feet again
Have mercy - it's so cold but I want to feel the rain

I'm tired, I inhale
Let's do this for one more day
I'm strong, I exhale
It takes so much work to stay this way