So Bad

I want you at my finger tips

I want you in my bones

I want you in a crowd of people

I want you all alone

I want you in my deepest parts

I want you in my skin

I want you a million times

Then a million times again

I want you so bad

I want you in my emptiness

I want you in my space

I want you in my dreams

I want you face to face

I want you when you're far away

I want you when you're near

I want you where you are

But god I want you here

I want you so bad

Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary, etc.

I would think you a dream

If I was capable of dreaming something

So perfectly sweet

And so exquisitely soul crushing

I would think you to blame

But I welcomed the "curse" you placed on me

So perfectly sanguine

I'm so exquisitely weak

I'm on the other side

Of the picture I saved of you in the

Warm golden light

Of sunset I'll never see

You're the only one who makes me feel this

Like my heart can't wait to be torn in two

I say your name three times in the mirror

But you never come through