5.05.2023

Midna

I, the weary, beside you knelt
 And pled with death to hold you back
Now I, the lost, know how you felt
 Now that my brightest star turned black

4.11.2023

Whispers

There was a demon in my head
I could not point you to its start
Though now its vengeful spirit's dead
These faint whispers won't depart

A flood of voices speak the truth
Of the facts I should believe
Yet louder are the baneful few
Who trace the lies I can't unsee

They hang like echoes, the words you said
When did I give them power?
Though not the demon in my head
You still make the whispers louder

I grasp for substance, the strength to seize
Ever choking on these lessons
So why make time for enemies
In my swiftly passing seconds?

3.01.2023

More Reasons

I used to be someone's favorite cup
Did I break because I was weak or because I was dropped?
It doesn't seem to matter anymore
Now that I am just shards of wet glass on the kitchen floor
Sweep me away before someone gets hurt
To rest in my place among the crumbs and the dirt
What you didn’t say, but I know you meant
There are plenty more cups, and a million more men

2.19.2023

Alone in the Discord Channel

Pass through my tired bones
Unbelonging sting
I used to feel alone
With all the good you didn't bring

Wash over my whole form
Caring's mellow curse
You used to keep me warm
Now getting warmer just feels worse

Teach me of your danger
Blood flowing through the fountain
I will learn your very nature
I will climb you like a mountain

Face me empty captor
Useless pain that drains my soul
I'll hold the peace that I am after
Once I have known you whole

12.18.2022

Oasis

Mental contract
 I've said hello, I can't take it back
  And now you've shown me that I cannot be
   Anything but your idea of me

Tethered being
 I can't interpret what I'm feeling
  I let it hurt, because I let it be
   Is it so wrong to want to see

Something easy
 My wasted efforts never pleasing
  Yet here I am just like before
   My eager blood spilled on the floor

Nearly broken
 An aging beast in an empty ocean
  Writhing in the stinging wind
   I did not want to do this again

Nearly stasis
 I suffer on towards the next oasis
  While in my mind, the likely conclusion
   That I'm inching towards the next illusion

11.22.2022

Perfect Balance Cheat Code

All these days that I rest in my grave before my time
Every hour passing unused, unkind
I struggle against these ropes but don't untie me

Don't come find me

The days are slow, but these weeks they won't stop winding
Every doubt and every shame keeps on reminding
That I'm still waiting for some moment but it's never timely

Don't come find me

Every mountain's just a hill that I don't feel like climbing
I try to blame it on the pills but I'm probably lying
I can't sleep these years away but I'm happier when I'm trying

Don't come find me

11.15.2022

Vile

Drained is the liar
With his endless rolling tires
  Vile is the wire
  There's no trial, only fire

Renewed is the sayer
The dirt beholds his prayer
  Vile is the layer
  That sits beyond the flayer

(Have fun starting over, dumbass)