I Wanted You Dead, and O' How I Dreamt of It

I wanted you dead, and O' how I dreamt of it
The wind of your last breath warm on my cheek
You are a blight, a scourge on my holy earth
Vile, pathetic, pitiful, weak

I wanted you dead, and O' how I dreamt of it
Cleansed of your curse as you fade off to sleep
Mercy you cry, mercy I never show
But you keep on rising back up from the deep

You say I need you, but I tried to send you away
What good is this mirror, just shards on the floor

I feel your aching, I feel your shame

I don't want this dead weight anymore

I wanted you dead, and O' how I dreamt of it

Until I became the beast from which I was freed

But now I can see clear as the light of day

I was supposed to love you, let you be me

I know I need you, I'm sorry I sent you away

Please bring me the pieces I completely ignored

I'll heal your aching, you heal my shame

I don't want this blind hate anymore

I want you to live, and O' how I dream of it