10.29.2024

Hot Cocoa Ice Cream Sandwich

The reality is this
You could break me with a kiss
Turn me in on my hungry heart
Watch me tear myself apart

The reality is this
I'm as frail as my cheapest wish
A coward with brave words
The more they echo, the more absurd

The reality is this
The worst case could still be bliss
I'm too busy spinning out
Driven by a reasonable doubt

The reality is this
You can't hold what you wont let slip
I got so good at seeing the signs
That now they haunt me all the time

10.01.2024

I Wanted You Dead, and O' How I Dreamt of It

I wanted you dead, and O' how I dreamt of it
The wind of your last breath warm on my cheek
You are a blight, a scourge on my holy earth
Vile, pathetic, pitiful, weak


I wanted you dead, and O' how I dreamt of it
Cleansed of your curse as you fade off to sleep
Mercy you cry, mercy I never show
But you keep on rising back up from the deep

You say I need you, but I tried to send you away
What good is this mirror, just shards on the floor
I feel your aching, I feel your shame
I don't want this dead weight anymore


I wanted you dead, and O' how I dreamt of it
Caught in some nightmare just watching you bleed
I followed the lessons taught by my past
Becoming the beast from which I was freed

I know I need you, I'm sorry I sent you away
Please bring me the pieces I completely ignored
I'll heal your aching, you heal my shame
I don't want this blind hate anymore


In the light of the torch I brought to burn you alive
I see that you are me and I don’t want you to die
I want you to live, and O' how I dream of it